30 things continues. See the list here.
List 3 legitimate fears and how they became fears.
1. The ocean.
Watching Pinnochio battle Monstro the whale as a child. Seeing the ocean for the first time and watching massive waves crash against rocks with unrelenting power as a teenager. Reading The Perfect Storm as an adult. Not being able to swim very well. Sharks and giant squid. The movie Titanic. The images and stories from the 2004 tsunami in the Indian ocean. Last year's tsunami in Japan. The uncontrollable power of the most massive thing on earth. Every once in a while I have a recurring nightmare about a giant wall of sea water coming toward me and I can't do anything about it.
They are giant bugs that bite or sting -- somehow inflict bodily harm. Something about their hard exoskeleton makes my skin crawl. In the movies, they always end up in boots when a cowboy decides to sleep out under the stars. Oh, and the Boo Box from Hook, that also helped fuel the fear. (This should be filed under irrational fears since I am in no real position to come across scorpions living in suburban Salt Lake City.)
I can't even type this one. I don't want to talk about it or even suggest it to the universe. Just know it's a real fear. Sometimes I lose my breath thinking about it. It came about by opening my heart to love.
#3 just brought tears to my eyes. How does one ever get used to that feeling?
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